I’m tired of having to say good-bye to the people I fuckin’ love and care so fuckin’ much about. My cousin left for the Marines 4 Weeks ago. My grandpa passed away 2 weeks ago. My uncle just left to go work in Pennsylvania. I’m not strong enough for this shit. My mom is crying. The kids are crying. I’m sitting here typing up my feels. I can’t look at anything but this computer screen or I’ll scream in frustration. This has been the worst 4 weeks of my life. I don’t know how people deal with situations like this. Am I being a selfish twat? Should I just tough it out and act like I’m not falling apart inside and out. I can’t stand this shit. I feel so god damned helpless. I just wanna go back in time to when my family was complete. Even just 5 weeks ago before I hated my life. I’m not the strong person they think I am. I can’t fucking deal.